Thursday, July 19, 2012

" WTF R U Doing?!"


I wrote in my last blog, that this was my mantra....well, I am taking it a step further.  Last year I put on the Body Indulgence party in December, leading up to it, I posted a positive body article, tip, etc. on Facebook the whole month of October.

This year I am registered to run a 5k in October, so I thought....why not get my friends to do this too!?  My mantra, is now a group slogan to encourage others to be Healthy At Every Size!

I am recruiting everyone I know to train the next 3 months and to walk or run in the October 5k with me :)  I plan to have the slogan produced on buttons for everyone to wear.  And a few of us, Joeybear and myself will have T-shirts made.

So...WTF R U DOING?

This was what I came up with for myself:


Here is my curvy body....dated photo, so we can see where I am after the October 5k.  In 3 weeks, my hips, thighs and butt are all more firm, lifted and smaller (I can tell just in how my jeans fit)

Looking forward to many more changes.

:)

Monday, July 16, 2012

Winning the race of ME


After one week (3 runs) post knee injury, I got a wild hair to run a 5k :)  I decided that in order to gauge myself I needed to have a baseline.  I had set a goal of doing the 8 week couch to 5k trainer and continue training until my registered 5k in October.  My goal for October was to finish in less than an hour.  How did I know if an hour was good?

I started 5k training the beginning of June with the mile average of 24. something minutes.  Using my Nike+ GPS, I started to keep a better track and could tell that my time was slowly dwindling down : )  PROGRESS!

So, I went to do the 2012 Beef & Eggs 5k in Brookings, SD. 

I got my number.  I stretched.  I got nervous.  Started my music. Lined up and went.  I tried to do what I have done in my 5k training program.  I walked the first 5 blocks fast and then jogged every other block for as long as I could and then walked some more.  When I hit my first mile..I was averaging  just oover 16 mins :)  It was long, I went through many emotions, but I was determined not to quit...I had to finish.

I did finish!  I was the last person to finish, but I came in at 55 minutes :)  5 minutes under my goal for October's race! I averaged just over 18 minutes a mile.  So, now I have 7 more weeks of 5k training and almost 3 months total to speed up, and try to reach my new goal for October of 40 minutes :) and jog the whole thing !!

I am so thankful for my family and friends for their support!  Especially my husband and his best friend, Joeybear.  I talk to Joeybear about running alot and when I complain about not being fast enough or thin enough, he encourages me with "WTF are YOU doing?" reminding me, that regardless I am doing it for me and doing more than others who might be haters!  I used that mantra my entire first 5k to keep me going, and took a picture of my sweaty post race ass print on the sidewalk so all the haters can kiss it ! : )

I plan to run my next 5k on August 4, 2012 to see what progress I can make.

There is not better rush, than winning a race with yourself!

Charmaine


Friday, July 6, 2012

Wild and Crazy Summer

So it has been a few weeks...these have been the weeks I have been layed up with a knee injury.  NO RUNNING, ugh...but then again it has been close to 100 degrees each day, so maybe I am not missing anything.

I finally have my knee brace for my right knee, left knee arrives next week.  My knee feels better, and I can start running a little bit again next week, but I have to wear the braces!!  I also need more calcium and some glucosamine, as the xray showed signs of early ostio-arthritis issues...for fucks sake already!!!  Grey hairs, lumpy body, bad knees...I am too young for this shit to start already!

Work has been chaos...this whole summer is a whirlwind, with no end in sight until Mid-September, but yet...so many fun adventures!  Next week my husband turns 28 and I am throughing him a "Harem Night" bash :)  The week after that, we have my brother wedding!...I am still super busy at work, then August 1 is my parent's 20th Anniversary.  Family camping in August.  Ren Fest and MN state fair in Sept and our HONEYMOON!

WOOT WOOT WOOT

I have so many details to write, with little to no time...but find me on Twitter: cupcakepuddles  , I like to tweet my little daily funnies :)

SMOOCHES!

Monday, June 18, 2012

My own submission

If you have been following me long, you know I am part of the BDSM lifestyle and love it.

Now, with that being said, I am mostly Dominant and only submit to my husband, whom I trust with everything....but even then, to this point I have chosen to submit.

This weekend, he took things up a notch to a point were I had not choice, I just did.  It was the most freeing experience of my BDSM life thus far.  He said all the right things, brought my body alive one small touch at a time and kept me tuned to his whim for hours.  MIND BLOWN!

Afterward, I was scared....I have never been pushed like that...but for him to hold me and tell me how beautiful I am to him...to feel his love and affection for giving myself to him in those ways....OMG...a dream come true!

As we polish out the details of our BDSM poly contact, and how brining in other play partners or potential lovers will effect us and our family we are growing stronger in our dynamics together and communication.  We aren't looking to be a full poly family!!  We don't plan to actually "date" others but we may have D/s relationships with other friends we are close with to make life more enjoyable when our children are safely with other family members for the evening.

WE protect our children with everything and that is what is important to us first and foremost.

heading into 5k week two


Last week I accomplished my 5k training with 4 runs :)  I thought day one was hard....on NO!!  Day 2 was awful, I was sore and the run was miserable, but I pushed through....barely, but I did it.  I did the workout #1 for run 1 and 2.  I thought I would do it again on run3, but increased to the workout #2 and was so happy I did.  I did it, still annoying shin splints a bit and well...no form :)  Then I did workout#3 on run 4....technically I am not counting day 1, as I did it by trial and then started a new 5k program and am spot on, everyother day running.

Today starts week2 of training (8 week program if done consistantly)...I will be happy if I am done in 12 weeks, I may have to do a few workouts more than once to feel I have accomplished it fully.  But still...I feel good after a run...not so much during, but I am told that gets better with time.

These first challenges you walk 5 minute warm up, then run 1 minute and walk 1.5 minutes for 6 times, then 5 minute cook down.

1 minute...never seemed so long at times....but here are the  reasons why I am running!

1 - for ME!
2- for my health
3- for my husband
4- for son #1
5-for son #2
6-for my daughter
7-for toned legs
8-to lose my post c-sections(3) belly
9-to prove I can
10-to feel alive

I think about how I will feel crossing my first 5k finish line...and keep going!

When I run, it is me and my head...a lot like yoga.  I am making my body prove to me that it can do these things.  I am rejoicing when it does and treating it better for working for me.

It is just me and the sidewalk/pavement.....I look to the next crack, rock, clump of dirt and run to it, then look to the next....GO GO GO!  I can do this :)

Monday, June 11, 2012

SOOO much this weekend - part 2 Running to and from

Another big step this weekend was that I went Shampoo free, using only baking soda and water on my hair.  I have Dr. Bronners coming to help the process, but I am attempting to go more natural and eco friendly.  My hair was fine after day one, but now on day 2....a bit greasy and not looking its best.  I am told to hang in there cause the first month can be rough.  Overall, I feel good about doing it.

and secondly, I took my first run!
Decided last week to register for my first 5k.  It will take place Oct. 27, 2012.  I paid my money, saw my Doctor to make sure I was healthy enough to do it.  Got the okay and bought running shoes the same day.  I ended up buying Asics.   Took them for a walk on Friday to break them in.  Downloaded 5k runner app (by couch to 5k) for my iphone and yesterday I took my first run.

This experience was hard, fun, wonderful, terrible, and emotional.

The 5 minute walking warm up was great.  I was stoked.  I was listening to my iphone music and the first song was "Videogames" by Lana Del Rey and she sang me through my warm up.

The last minute of my warm up "Sail" by Awolnation came on and it pumped me up for my very first run...I was ready, or so I thought.  I ran my first minute and thought....OH SHIT, do I really want to do this?  But I kept on, 1 minute running, 1.5 minutes walking (6 sets)....I cycled through music: "crystalize" by Lindsey Stirling, "The power is mine" by Lords of Acid....and on my last 1 minute run it was "Unbreakable" by Honor by August.....I gave it my everything and after that last minute run...........

I CRIED!  I smiled and cried.  I was proud of myself, I was amazed I could do it, I felt accomplished and as I cooled down to "Ever After" by Mariannas Trench....I realized that everyone of the songs had meaning to me in this journey.

I ran (jogged really) where I could be seen.  I have no form and probably looked ridiculous, but at least I was doing it.  If someone recognizes me and brings it up, I will proudly say I am training for my first 5k.

I did a cool down/stretching yoga and drank plenty of water.  I feel good today, a little sore, but after shooting big guns the day before...it all feels good.  I feel a different kind of ALIVE and I love it.

Today I rest, then run again Tuesday.  I am excited and hope to meet my goal !

Thanks to everyone who has encouraged me.  <3

SOOO much this weekend...part 1 - Shooting Shit

Many wonderful new experiences this weekend :)

First off, my first week of doing more of the sugar detox diet went well.  I significantly decreased my carbs and fat intake.  I did still enjoy some beer, but not sure if that is going to change, especially in the summer months.  I feel better and am really enjoying all the fresh vegetables in our diet now.  I drink water, black coffee, or an occasional beer....no soda.

Saturday I went to the "WITO" (Women in the outdoors) event near Volga, SD.  It was a great day and it gave women a chance to learn, ask questions and have some hands on help with many guns.

I shot the following:

Archery - this scared me the most for some reason, but it was like the yoga of weaponry!!  LOVED IT!
It took me awhile to pop my balloon and get a good grouping, but once I had the hang of it, it was proper body alignment and breathing that got me through.

I the worked my way to a 9mm, then 45mm, then a 22 revolver

Then I had some big boys :)
357 Magnum
44 Magnum....swoon!
I shot that target like I meant business, and it felt so good!

I then became aquainted with the shotguns and rifles.

20 gauge shotgun was a bit light for my liking. (pump action)
I really like the 12 gauge shotgun and Mossberg turkey gun!!!  I thought shooting stationary targets wasn't too bad, but shooting clays...no way!!!  BUT I HIT 3 of 7 thrown :)  I was told that was as good as most men !! YAY!!  I can't wait to go shooting with my husband!

But then.....they pulled out something and I was in lust at first sight.
AR 223/AR 15 and a Glock

I rocked the Glock....6 for 6 on the targets~!
Then I want to AR 15 sitting....not great but got the feel for it.
AR15 prone....6 for 6 at 100 yards!!

I then took that bad boy, stood and hit 5 for 6 standing :)  I am ready for the zombie apocolypse and loved every damn second of it!!


Overall this was an extradinary experience for my girlfriends and I.  WE are so excited to do it again, and I am hoping my husband and I can do more shooting together.  I am already looking at guns!  Fell for a AR15 set up to shoot .22 :)  in pink of couse.