Tears and fears

Today my life changes.

That sounds so profound...but really our lives change everyday, with every choice we make.  But what makes today different, you ask?  Today my bestmate, JTB, and I have our last lunch date before he moves away to be a BIG CITY MAN. (New Jersey Gay Hipster)  I am so proud of him for following a dream and doing what he wants to do!  If I wasn't married with kids and a great career....you bet I would be going right along with him.

In our history together, he has a tendancy to leave me.    We met,  he invited me to a Halloween party, and left me for a boy....left me with a boy I didn't know, but an upstanding one so it was okay.  We fell in friendship and he left for the Navy....his life as a Gay Sailor was cut short and he returned to me.  He arrived on my 30th birthday and we picked right up in our whirlwind courtship where we had left off.  He convinced me to be his roommate, to move to a town an hour and a half away without a job...because "Brookings is better" he said.  And I did!  We went out for New Year's Eve....at 2 minutes to Midnight, "Don't stop believing" started to play at Skinners...he hugged me, kissed me on the cheek, wished me a happy new year and flew out the door to meet a boy.  And this has been our relationship...we are there for eachother, and he runs when he has too.  I do feel like the Dr's companion, I am always chasing after him and yet not.  He will always come back because he knows I love him for who he is, douche and all!

I have thought, cried, wrote and continue to write our adventures in my Dr. Who Journal he gave me as a wedding gift before he strapped on a bow tie and married my husband and I. 

I read once, that if you find a woman to shave your back, you have found your perfect woman....well, I did that for him 3 or 4 weeks after we met....so I guess, I am his perfect woman....or at least that is what I am going to let myself believe :)

I am going to miss him so very much!  His journey will now hold stories that I won't be in, and exciting times I wish I could share with him.  I hope to make a trip to see him so that our journey never ends!  We are companions, just looking for the Dr. in two places, in different times of our lives and I just hope we continue to meet over and over again!  I don't want to be forgotten anymore than he does.

I love you JTB!  Geronimo :)