31 days left!

31 days = 1 month

One month left before I am Mrs.   The only fears I have about the wedding are the little details, that I won't get my bouquet finished, the decorations won't be done right, the food, etc won't be right.  Just the little things.  I know we will get married, even if things don't fit right....we will have photos even if I look horrible...we will eat even if it doesn't look the way I would like or had imagined.  And that is him speaking...the calm one in our relationship.    I WANT:  I want cotton candy martinis, cupcakes of many colors on pedastles, great snacks, attractive drink area, to fit perfectly and lovely in my dress, to have all the words spoken correctly and with meaning.   DETAILS.

What matters is that he looks at me lovingly and I can see the VOWS in his eyes as he takes me as His forever!!   That he understands that I am with him for life, no matter what comes our way.  That our families, friends and especially our children see a loving relationship that they can grow in.  That I wake up that morning his fiance and go to sleep that night his wife.

I am so stressed about my work situation and I know that is making the little wedding details seem all that more HUGE.  I worry about our living situation if I can't find anything.  I cry that we won't have a honeymoon, when I just want a few days with him alone....we need it, we deserve it.  We love our family, but we just want a little time alone.

I worry about possible family tension during the wedding....or just random chaos that I can't control.  I don't want to be miserable and stressed on the day!

Lord help me get thru this : )